When having a hope on something, you're just want the result in your mind to be turn into reality.
But life can so cruel 10000X times.
Guys, officially are jerks like big time!

All this while I keep telling myself that he's waiting for me to heal,
and he''ll come back.
But reality just love to throw big stones at you,
I hated every single minute of it.
A friend of mine whom he confined to occasionally,
really SERIOUSLY asking me to accept the FACT HE"S NOT COMING BACK.

I broke down,
And I officially hate it till the down of my guts!
No matter how much I hated him,
I still love him no matter what.
It hurts really bad.
Next week, he has a party and he's inviting me.

I'm still making the decision whether should I go.
Those memories of him and me keep haunting me every single hour.
Distractions is the only thing that keeps from breaking down,
Exhaustion is the only thing that keeps me from crying myself to sleep.
Heartbreaks are so tiring..

Truth to say, I deserved to take the blame. since I make it this way.
Yeah...He must be very happy I get treated like this..
Now, I have to kill myself by studying...
The heart still cares no matter what...