Last few days have being hectic
Stats exam turns out to be okay I guess
But what past is past
Anyhow, after a ravenous stats exam where the atmosphere in the exam hall nearly choked me out
I manage to have a great time with some friends to the movies..
Unfortunately, I was on a friend's car and suddenly we got into a slight accident
We thank God to be alive but the cars were slight damage, scratch paints and dented bumper.
Crash course.
It is the worse day ever!
Sigh

If you reading this, I'm sorry.

I hasn't being studying for the past 2 days as I have turf toe.
I have been resting, consuming ibuprofen to ease the pain and swelling
With the bandage on, I'm immobile for the moment and my mum was teasing me that I acted like a total klutz!
I even laugh at that statement cuz it is true,
I'm indeed a klutz for the moment.
It will take weeks to heal

When I woke up from my afternoon nap,
I got a text from Mr Popular,
the guy I no longer friends with,
well, the guy I wanna forget very badly,

It was an awkward conversation,
I didn't really bother about it,
beside he knew I don't prepaid lines,
but somehow, I don't know why he even bother to ask
beside I think he knew that is impossible
I ignored the text and totally focusing on healing on my turf toe.
I tried to keep the conversation short
But he rather hear the whole story.
I was hesitating,
Last time, it was my fault that I pushed him away.
And because of the position that I putting him now,
I rather not stay around and trouble him again
But he keep insisting it anyway,
He asked about my exams which I'm like really freaking stressing.
I didn't talk to him since the open house,
Cuz I knew I was invited there but I wasn't in a friendly atmosphere with him.
Naturally, I would let time to drift us apart, so that I won't have to feel the tension from him of putting him in a difficult position.
And when there's moment that our eyes met, a window to his soul showing that there's nothing going between us,
instead he just want to be friends, a clear picture but is impossible because I'm holding on to those feelings.

I would rather stay away from him as far as possible so he won't have to look at me and trigger the tension of me putting him in a difficult position.
Every single chances of staying away and don't want look into those gorgeous dark colour eyes.
I miss those eyes terribly.

Is hurtful for me to fight for it since he's already given up anyway
That's why I entirely let him go, flip the switch off of my memories with him, everything about him.

Since we didn't talk,
he asked how have I been doing these days..
I just cut it the whole conversation short with few words as answers.
He said he'll catch up with me real soon but I'm not looking forward at all
Not at all.

:(